[Hanako]

Thank you, guys. I can't say that we have won the battle yet. But it is nice to read some supportive posts here. Some decisions can be so hard to make, one really doesn't know what the right thing is because one doesn't know the consequences of every decision. It is like choosing while being blind. So it really doesn't help if people here think that their opinion is the only right one and anyone who dares to chose differently is suddenly evil. I feel so relieved at the moment, but at the same time so empty. I feel like closing this account and stop being in contact with this forum, because I do feel badly let down when I needed some support. Sorry for being so depressive, but this baby took so much out of me emotionally.